It takes away my choice, doesn't it, if I don't? I chose to leave Sweden and go somewhere I didn't even speak the language, to begin with, where all my supposed "family" won't look me in the eye. I might have had little say on what Ryoko taught me, and my situation there, but I could have focused on my studies and tried to at least get a middle school diploma while working under her. I didn't want to, it felt hollow to me. I could have been smarter and not taken on such a client who could definitely be trouble for me from the start, and you definitely aren't supposed to fall in love with your clientele, but I did.
I definitely didn't have to go see Ryoko that night, but I did. No one forced me to do that, I did it on my own. Just because the adults sinned and I'm young, doesn't remove my own sins... And they make me who I am, even if I shouldn't even exist in the first place. I can only accept my part of the deal, because otherwise, what am I? Just a puppet? I'm not happy with that.
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Date: 2022-07-20 08:47 pm (UTC)I definitely didn't have to go see Ryoko that night, but I did. No one forced me to do that, I did it on my own. Just because the adults sinned and I'm young, doesn't remove my own sins... And they make me who I am, even if I shouldn't even exist in the first place. I can only accept my part of the deal, because otherwise, what am I? Just a puppet? I'm not happy with that.