(lost in thought he is. it's not that he's unaffected by all this, it's just that... being here is a bit of a blessing, actually. he has to face none of it, muster courage to change none of it, his melancholy is his alone, and if he does come back to life, he'll be different. older, perhaps, able to hold his head high, and this time away might explain to him whether he wants reira once he can have her. he might even be able to abide to his promise of surpassing ren, after all that. right now, he just wants to hide here. run.
and the drag he takes from the stick is so strong that he finishes it. nothing goes over his head, kate. he knows she's sobbed in that bathroom, he can see the redness of her knuckles and the tension in her shoulders. she didn't want to hold hands earlier, but shin himself reaches for it, only to wrap one of her arms around his waist, his own bringing her to his chest.)
You didn't. It was me, wasn't it? I was doing all that. I think maybe she did give me something, and I just don't understand what it is yet.
(his kisses don't do anything, but he presses one to her temple.)
I know you're going through things, I can tell in bed and out of it. You're too special to let that define you, alright? I know just from seeing it.
(oh, she should be feeling a warm rush, and he doesn't even know he can provoke it.)
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Date: 2022-07-20 09:32 pm (UTC)and the drag he takes from the stick is so strong that he finishes it. nothing goes over his head, kate. he knows she's sobbed in that bathroom, he can see the redness of her knuckles and the tension in her shoulders. she didn't want to hold hands earlier, but shin himself reaches for it, only to wrap one of her arms around his waist, his own bringing her to his chest.)
You didn't. It was me, wasn't it? I was doing all that. I think maybe she did give me something, and I just don't understand what it is yet.
(his kisses don't do anything, but he presses one to her temple.)
I know you're going through things, I can tell in bed and out of it. You're too special to let that define you, alright? I know just from seeing it.
(oh, she should be feeling a warm rush, and he doesn't even know he can provoke it.)